unveiling emotions I: deception

[Ron Wyn]

I’ve been defeated. I’ve been brought to my knees. I feel weak. Just as I thought I had it all figured out. Just as I thought I had all the puzzle pieces in place. Swoosh. The rug is once again pulled out from under my feet. I know. It’s happened many times before. But I forget. I always forget. Hmm. Convenient. Every time it happens, feels like the very first time. But then I remember. And it only makes it worse.

 

You have shed blood for that person. You’ve given them all you’ve got. You’re filled with expectation. And then they let you down big-time. Again and again. Yep. You know the feeling.

 

I feel burdened. I feel heavy. It’s that familiar pain. It sits on my chest. It’s at it again. Like a heavy cloak, it weighs me down. Head to toe.

 

I feel disgusted. I wish I could just drop dead. I wish I could just sleep forever and not dream, not even for one split of a lifetime. I’m a loser. I’m a victim. I’ve been defeated. I’ve been brought to me knees. And I don’t know if I’ll ever get up.

 

Deception. It will do that to you… 

[Ron Wyn]

Hi Diana. You're very welcome. Thank you very much for your comment. You're absolutely right. Taking care of yourself is paramount. And many times it includes keeping others at a safe distance, no matter how "close" they are...

[Diana Stevan]

Ron, thank you for your welcome to Book Blogs. We share a similar background. Your post on deception is an honest one, but a sad one, one we all experience at times. It's life. It's good to give people who hurt us a wide berth, even if it's family or friends. It doesn't mean giving up on them, but it means taking care of yourself.